12 March 2008. There were no big turnouts, no big cake, no big banners, no heaps of presents, no trays of food. But i felt really happy and lucky. friends i love sent me their wishes via sms. but more importantly, i had the company of yx, who prepared all this just for me. Thank you dear :) I <3 u.

haha... even though the balloon idea didn't turn out as expected, i do see the effort la! ur mouth mus have been sore from blowing(n bursting) those balloons! Dun worry, i still love it, n i'll imagine it as a success! bday cake! really nice! den there was a great bday cable car dining n a new wallet n bag! sorry dear, u really burnt a big hole in ur pocket! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! :)

well, these 21 years seem such a long long time, it is, n i feel old, but i'm glad it has been filled with wonderful memories. there is still a long way ahead of me, if nothing untoward happens, n i hope the road ahead will be an even better one. I dun really have any big ambitions or dreams or hopes for the future, i never did. now, as was before, i just wish to enjoy n treasure what i have, n love who i should love, n protect whatever tt's important to me. looking back, what lessons have i drawn? i remember vividly childhood days back at blk 72 old airport road, with the aunties and the neighbours' kids;PAP kindergarten, with my putting on my entire attire every morning for sch while i snoozed; mountbatten primary school, where i played hide n seek n catching n what not with my friends i cant remember; shifting to simei when i was 9, wetting my bed the first nite in the new house, changkat primary from 3A to 6A n got 269 for psle; dunman high school, where i had the most wonderful time mainly bcos of NP, shared weal n woe with my squadmates n made my dearest buddies n scored 8A1s n 2 A2s for o lvls; got into n stayed in hwachong, where i met the first setback in life having flopped promos n forced to drop econs, where i had the most bittersweet memories; pasir ris fsc where i met a bunch of friends with whom there was always jokes, laughter n supper, where i met my first love manfred; university was a lonesome experience at first but not so bad when one gets used to it n accept the fact tt ppl do have lots of agenda; then i committed the worse deed prior to this 21st bday, i became a person i always despised most: a deserter, i still have recurring thoughts n unresolved emotions tt i doubt will ever go away, but i did it all for yx. i should have known better right from the beginning, n i would have been saved lots of regrets. i can't say i have the most charmed life. there were things i should have done but not done n vice versa. may my life journey from here on leave me with fewer regrets.