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as a sad reality of life is finally sinking in... with the tutorials starting. so far so good, but I'm not exactly looking forward to the essays that have to be handed up and the tests to be mugged. It doesn't help that I'm rather far behind in my readings. But hey! Life is much more than studies... have to earn money, which is a scarcity now, prepare for CCS... my dear geraldine has been v stressed over this and I seriously wonder why I'm not half as stressed. But if you're reading this, geraldine: CCS 08 will be a great success!!! :) CNY is closing in, as is dear superman's bday (quite anticipating his reaction to my mission outcome), VDAY (which is too commercialized, but then again, who wouldn't wish to celebrate it with their loved ones?).... and ya... in the not too distant future, my 21st Bday... no plans at all to celebrate it... I've only attented one 21st bday celebration so far... n I really think its quite an expensive affair to invite anyone n everyone u know. I'll be happy enough to spend it with close ones :)

Getting to know more abt yx these past days, and needless to say, my feelings for him grow more each day... yet, at the back of my mind, I still can't really come to terms with what I have done. I really wonder how mf's coping, I can't deny that I'm rather concerned abt him, afterall, he's still a special friend. Should I chat with him? But how am I supposed to face him as if nothing has ever happened? It feels weird, this situation. Nevertheless, I still hope that he still regards me as a friend, as the last thing on my mind is to hurt and lose friends. Yup.

Back again to the harsh fact of life that drives us like gears in a huge machinery... grinding and turning, trying to achieve something. Hopefully I can summon enough strength, energy and determination to cope with the trivialities of administration stuff and the gruel mugging.